Under Caffeinated Queen

{January 6, 2010}   Hello world!

Welcome to my world. This is my blog, and it’s more for me than an audience as I journey towards growing up (so I have something out in the universe to keep me accountable for the changes I want to make in my life), but feel free to grow up with me. So since this is all about my growing up, I should give a jumping off point. Today I’m 25 years old, have been married for 2 years, have an 8 month old daughter (who chose today to crawl for the first time!), have owned my house for over a year, I’m a part-time medic in the military, and have been in school forever. So married with a house and a kid means grown up, right? Apparently not so much. I don’t feel it anyways.

I should also mention that this journey in my life it being fueled by a little bit of a personal slump. My house is a MESS, my body’s a mess, and pretty much every aspect of my life is disorganized chaos (except for my daughter’s closet because I LOVE baby clothes). Pretty much everything I’ve done in the last 9 months has completely revolved around Alexis (as it should be) but now I’m at a crossroads where I’m trying to remember who I was before I was “mama” and “wifey.” I also have more bad habits than I care to mention, the greatest of all being procrastination. Oh how I LOVE to procrastinate. I used to be a total gym rat and since about 2 days after I found out I was pregnant with Alexis, I have been focusing so much on taking care of her that I’ve completely neglected myself. It’s not that I’m fat, but I’m not as strong or as healthy as I used to be.

So lets see…. this is all about starting new habits for me and writing it here to keep me on track and motivated. Also, a little inspiration for this actually came from an episode of The Office (which I saw for the first time 3 weeks ago after my husband asked for the series on DVD for Christmas and I proceeded to do almost nothing but watch the 5 1/2 seasons one after another to get caught up because it really is an amazingly smart show — he’s now seriously regretting asking for it lol) where they watch a video of Michael talking about what he wanted to be when he grew up and you see he hasn’t done anything towards it. It really made me think about my life, where I am now, what I wanted when I was little, and what I want to teach my daughter about her own aspirations. That being said, in addition to continuing towards my nursing degree, I am going to go back to some acting as that was my dream as a child and it’s one of those things that I really miss doing. I started doing plays and classes when I was 3 and did it up until I did the Vagina Monologues a couple of years ago and I really miss it a lot. I saw the other day that there’s an improv class coming up in a few weeks and I’m all over it. I really can’t wait. It’s not that I want to be famous or even expect to make a living out of it by any means, especially living in Spokane, but I want to teach my daughter that there is always room in your life for the things that you’re passionate about.

There are really 2 parts to these habits, some are Internal Habits I need to make for myself, to be selfish again with my me time and taking care of myself (since I usually always take care of the baby first) and my health and happiness, and the others are External Habits for my family (i.e. school, house, etc). So I guess I should get down to it.

Internal habits for this week (or what’s left of it): I want to work out a little everyday, drink more water, and eat less junk.

External habits for this week (ditto): I want to get the rest of the laundry all caught up. Well I guess I should break it down and say, I want to get 2 loads of laundry done a day. I know this sounds lame, but you have no idea how much laundry we have in our house. My husband and I have 4 closets full of clothes (mostly mine), plus the baby’s hamper is almost full (her laundry is always caught up since we do everything for her before we do anything for ourselves).

So yeah that was hopefully the longest entry you’ll ever see here again so I’m gonna head off to start working on my new habits.

Peace Out 2008 – Best Year So Far!
Category: Life

Where did you begin 2008?
I think we stayed home last year cause we were so worn out from the wedding and the holidays… I think…

What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
Married 🙂

Were you in school any time this year?
Yup, college + tech school to cross-train

Did you have to go to the hospital?
yeah 20 weeks 2 days prego I had to go have some emergency tests run cause they thought I had appendicitis. No fun at all!! Oh yeah and we visited Brad’s mommy when she had surgery.

Did you have any encounters with the police?
2 warnings, 1 ticket… hehe and I molested my lil cop a few times 🙂

Where did you go on vacation?
Miami, Belize, Honduras, Mexico, The Bahamas, Wisconsin….I think that’s it.

What did you purchase that was over $100?
A house, a new truck for my husband, a new laptop for me, lots of baby stuff for the little one, new windows & granite expressions countertops for the house… I think it’s it…

Did you know anybody who got married?
Andy & Kate Condon…shit I know there’s more I’m blanking. That was the big one this year.

Did you know anybody who passed away?
Actually no…it’s been a good year.

Did you move anywhere?
Yup! To my new house!

What sporting events did you attend?
A couple of my adorable lil bro-in-law’s basketball games

What concerts/shows did you go to?
My adorable lil bro & sis-in-laws school play last spring…

What is the one thing you thought you wouldn’t do in 2008?
Well originally we weren’t planning to get prego for another 2 years, but then in June we changed our minds 🙂

What have been your favorite moments?
Hehe when I told Brad I was pregnant was kinda fun….cause he thought I was kidding! He seriously wanted me to go pee on more sticks for him lol. And when Brad came down to Texas and we got to see the baby on the ultrasound at 14 weeks! That was the best! I thought it was gonna look like a lil jelly bean like everyone else’s but it actually looked like a baby! Oh yeah and when it kicked me for the first time….pretty much anything having to do with the little one has been fabulous…

Any new additions to your family?
My cousin Lydia just had another baby but no new additions to my house yet…

What was your best month?
Wow! That’s a HARD question. Probably August cause that’s when we moved into our house & found out I was prego.

Who has been your best drinking buddy?
Kinsie & Michelle & Christine!

Made new friends?

Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
AF Hotels…booo!

Change your hairstyle?
Yeah. I chopped it off and I HATE it short so I’m just waiting for it to grow back out…

Have any car accidents?
Just a lil dent lol

Do you have a New Year’s resolution?
To gain more weight lol. So far I’m 6 months prego and have only gained 7lbs. I need to put on a lil more before the lil one comes. Then lose it all afterwards.

Do anything embarrassing?
Haha my simulated childbirth in front of my EMT class..long story…soooo ackward!

Been snowboarding?
I did last Jan & Feb, but not this winter 😦 It’s on my list of fun I’m not allowed to have till the baby comes.

Find a special someone?
I had em all along.

Glad to see 2008 go?
Heck yeah cause it means only 14 more weeks till babytime! But was it was seriously the best year ever! Can’t wait to see what 2009 has!


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